Back from Gary's blog

Read his emo post

I guess I know what happened

Hahaha din bother calling him cos he's gonna enjoy his night at zouk

His post kinda woke me up from whatever that's happening

But I'm not so brave like him

To type everything out here

The most is i'll post it in my livejournal

When I read his post

It made me wanna cry

Cry for him

Cry for myself

Feels like we're in the same boat after we had that good talk

Whatever happens

Gary, i'll be there for you as a friend :)

Well, at least he managed to get over his problems

I stoning at home like a damn fuck

Waiting for someone

I know what's happening now

But I don't know why I'm pushing myself

I don't know why I bottle everything up inside my mind

But whatever it is

Everything i do is futile

I'm still trying

Always trying

And I don't know why

I just wanted to settle down

This time really settle down

But I guess I still cant

Wtf is going on

I feel that I derserve this treatment

But ppl say "no"

My heart aches everynight

There's nothing I can do about it

But to suck it in and cry silently

If I knew all this was gonna happen

I rather I not know you

And yes admire you from a far

like the the past 2 years

My heart never ached to badly before

I duno why

But Im shivering too

I've never felt all these before but it hurts so damn badly

That I feel like banging my head on the wall

I stoned at home the whole day today

I wanted to try again

And ask you out

But you're prolly too busy to even reply my sms-es

I guess I wasted my time

I shouldn't even have skipped work today

I will control myself from tmr onwards

I'm not gonna try anymore

No matter how badly I wanna ask you out

I aint gonna try

I'll wait for you

And see if it's true

That you love me like how I love you