Today felt damn weak

Damn nua, damn useless, damn tired

Balled at sembawang for the whole day AGAIN

A lotta things have been happening lately

I gotta get 14th months of bitter sweet memories off my mind

Wonder how the hell do I erase that amount of memories

Nvm I know what I gotta do

Just put my mind to ball and ball

I will master that proper way to shoot

The way that Ming Shi taught me

I need to train more, a lot more..

I need more wrist muscle or wrist strength

I need to train my flicking with medicine balls

I will restrain myself from shooting my old style on court

Regarding of the mach being friendly or not

I just gotta give it my all

Gahhhhh today really screwed up everything

Played friendly with some guys but I used back my old shooting style

Super duper disappointed, the shot didn't even go in

Eventhough now I feel so useless cos I can't shoot or do anything

But I must have faith in myself

that I can do it even if it takes 5 years or more

After mastering the proper way to shoot

I will master all the centre moves

It's hard to adapt

Having to change from a guard to a centre

Nvm I can do it

Tuesday gonna be doomsday for me

Cos wednesday I ton-ed outside but some ppl PS-ed me

So i overslept and woke up at 630

Missed training and now I got punishment

Fuck man I also got no explaination for Lizhen

Really, I have doubts if the plan to welcome Xp back will succeed

Sighs
Everything's so screwed up lately
I don't feel the trust between me and any of my friends
Feel like coming then come, feel like going then go
Wtf i join the same job as them

In the end also all PS and quit, rather find a job I like and work alone

Sms ppl say what's tmr's activity, then in the end still get words like

" Bo jio ", Nuay buay as if I never post on our blog, as if I never sms you all
Always go all the way to jurong to ball den donwan come to sembawang or braddell to ball

Look forward to plans that ppl suggest and even told my parents I won't be coming home

In the end also empty swears and promises
Maybe I take friendship too seriously
But it's been like this since primary school
I guess there's only one person in my life that I can trust
And I think very few ppl noe her
Meeting up with her on 19th oct, for the new balance race =)
I think I should learn to ball by my own

Going to the braddell court when everyone PS me
Make friends with those beng beng/ cheena kinda bballers
Well, they're there everyday -.-
Play more with guys

Improve more on my ball handling and reaction

And this is random but idk why my hand muscles hurt

Monday :) I can't wait